Have you ever....?

Have you ever felt that all your passion for something you love was just taken away and you feel like the whole world came crashing down and all you actually feel is lost?
Imagine that you are a child facing drought for various weeks and all you want is a glass of water to quench your thrist but a precious glass of water was poured away in your face. That pain and hurt is something you will never forget for life. I feel that way. My dream is taken away and it has vanished. I can never do what I love most anymore. I am thrown out of the game. But who can I blame other than myself?

Decisions, Adaptation.

It has always been my personal belief that humans, are born and made to adapt to situations they are being placed in and make the best out of what they have, in short adapting to the surroundings and learn to make full use of things avaliable around them. There is this constant practice of adaptation pretty much since we were born. But despite so many practices after graduating and moving on to new schools, I dislike the idea of adapting. I have never been a fan of meeting new people and doing new things and since I have graduated from secondary school, my constant worry is what I am going to do without my best friends around me and backing me up. It sucks to know that we will be moving on to different institutions and leading a different and kinda seperate lives.

Decisions. After receiving my O level results, I wasn't exactly satisfied neither was I utterly disappointed with. I just felt well, fine. Mdm Chen told me it wasn't too bad and for that second I had that tinge of hope that I gotten 12 points or below. But upon looking at my results, the only thing that caught my eye was my humanities results it was the only C among all the subjects. I was actually raging inside cause I actually studied pretty hard for it and I felt kinda disappointed at myself for doing badly for that subject which kinda affected my overall results and I felt like crying. But oh well, since it was already a situation that can never be reversed, I just let it be and tried to be positive about it. My best friends felt that I did well and I am glad they thought that way :-) But honestly I aimed to do better and after some people said that I could do well I kinda held my hopes a bit too high HAHA. My results can secure me a place at a decent poly course or a neighbourhood JC. So I'm pretty stuck between these two choices because of the things my seniors, parents, teachers and friends say. So I'm still battling between these two choices and trying to make a choice before 17 Jan which is 2 days from now. Choosing an institution or course of my choice is really one tough and important decision I have to make since a long time. It kinda determines what I do and the kind of life I would lead for the next 2 or 3 years or even the rest of my life. I really don't want to regret any of the decisions made and worse still a rash decision which will cause me to be unhappy with what I do in the future.
Well I hope I can make a decision soon. x

Last day of school

Today was the last day I wore my school uniform. It has been 4 years since I first wore my school uniform and time has indeed pass in the blink of an eye. You know how people have various turning points in their life where they start to realise what they want and what they don't, what kind of things suit them more and what they actually want to pursue in the future? Well for me, secondary school was the major turning point in my life. I learnt how to interact with various people, found friends that I could truly rely on without fear in my times of need, found people I truly adore and met caring and wonderful teachers I'm blessed to have.
How many people gets the chance to perform in an all girls choir where singing is a part of our soul and every session of choir is filled with joy and laughter, and how many could proudly say they led the student body by being the president of the student council, and how many could tell the world that they had met their best friends that will always be for life for they had never left them and was their pillar of strength through thick and thin?
I believe I'm blessed and lucky to have met great people in my secondary school and had the honour of being the top of the student body which made life in secondary school so much more memorable.
5 years ago, I would have never thought that one day I would be achieving so much in a time span of 4 years. Although this short yet unforgettable part of my life has ended. Another chapter will soon unfold. :) Despite being anxious if the unknown, a part of me can't wait for it and may the people I cherish and hold dear to my heart be not only in this part of my journey but also be part for the rest of my journeys in the future. x
I really cherish and thank god for everything that happened which have made me stronger and made me who I am today. xo Thanks to everyone who have been a part of my secondary school life and contributed to such wonderful memories I would never never forget. x